by M. Robinson
Stars: 5 plus stars!!
The beginning- A point in time or space where something starts.
32 year old Sebastian Vanwell, was a very successful yacht broker, who always loved the design and architecture of a luxurious yacht. His only addiction was being on the water. He loved it, he thrived on it, and he needed it in his life. After a very stable, loving child hood with a few bumps, Sebastian married the love of his life. The one person that he knew would always be there. Julia was his rock, and he loved her more than life itself. Sebastian kept his addiction to the water under control, wanting to keep his time with his wife and son his number one obsession, that was until he saw her. This new addiction haunted him, the one compulsion that he couldn’t control no matter how hard he tried.
Ysabelle Telle hit him hard, knocking the wind from his lungs. Coming from worlds apart, beautiful, dark complexion Ysabelle Telle didn’t have the rich, protected background that Sebastian Vanwell had. Ysabelle lived a life of hell, in poverty, growing up with a drug addict mother that never cared, and horrific living conditions. Ysabelle lived for one person and one person only; herself. She was pure perfection, her beauty along with a flawless body had men lined up, driveling over her insuring her success as a VIP.
There are too many words that describe the effects when two diverse worlds like theirs collide. They both have too much to lose to get caught in the forceful pull, which could destroy them both.
Publisher’s Note: This book contains explicit sexual content, graphic language, and drug use. Intended for mature audiences.
Oh my god… What just happened!!! I mean… What just happened….
I’ll tell you what happened….
I just got blown away by this book!!! This book had me at the very first paragraph! Once I started…. I just couldn’t stop!!!
When this up & coming author sent Melanie & I a message asking if I could share a teaser for her new book… I first looked the book up on goodreads & read the synopsis and said to myself.. Damn… That book sounds good. Then I read the picture teaser she wanted us to share…& I was sold!! I told M. Robinson that I would share the picture and that I thought her book sounds really good.. & Wished her luck. When she wrote back to me…. asking if I want to be part of the VIP book tour… I said YES!!!!
Omg!!!! I’m soooo glad she found our FB blog!!! Because this book seriously does not disappoint!!!! & I’m truly in awe…how much I LOVE this book!!! It’s so raw and in your face. And the sex scenes were just out of this world!!!! I mean… WOW!!!!… WOW!!!!
I don’t even know where to start! This book has it all!
-A royally F’ed up love story
(& I mean that in a good way!)
-just enough of the tug & pull of your heart strings.
Yup, it has it all.
This book starts off with with Ysabelle, How she grew up. Why she made the choice she made in her life & how she ended up as an Escort.
I loved her. She was dealt a shitty hand in life. She knew that the world wasn’t all sunshine & roses at a very young age. She learned how to survive. The things that she did to survive were done only for one thing & one thing only. To get herself out of her home town & on to bigger & better things.
“Taking care of me came naturally. It was a fight or flight mentality, only the strongest survive, kill or be killed, that type of shit…my mom was a fucked up person, I had to survive. Period.”
That lead her to a bar in Miami where she meets Devon Hill. He turns out to be a true friend and helps her out.
Ysabelle starts to for the first time get her life together. But still something is just missing for her. Just when she starts to feel restless in comes Madam. And her life takes another turn. She becomes a VIP.
I loved him & hated him.
He had it all… Good looks.. Down to earth… athlete…& he had lots of women falling at his feet!
Growing up he had two in particular. Julia & Olivia…. sisters.
Julia grew up with Sebastian. While Olivia came into Julia’s family when she was 10….they adopted her.
When Sebastian first saw Olivia… She took his breath away.
“I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. Julia was tiny and Olivia was even tinier. She had long dark hair. tan skin, big green eyes, and big lips that I felt the urge to want to kiss.
(Wait… What? Kiss…no…that can’t be right? What’s wrong with me?”
For me this is where we start to see Sebastian start in on his whole indecisiveness.
I hate wishy washy characters & I had never read a book with the lead guy taking on that kind of wishy washness role before. I wanted to jump in the book & slap him!!! You’ll understand more when you read the book.
But Sebastian loved them both. But I feel in two different ways.
He always had this soft spot for Julia.
“The best and most memorable times were when she would smile; I love Julia smile. She’s beautiful, her blue eyes, Long wavy blonde hair, thick eyelashes, and high cheekbones with delicate facial features. There’s a tiny beauty mark on the right side of her nose, and her bottom lip is thicker than her top.”
His need and loyalty to Julia just didn’t sit well with me.
Julia could see that something was going on with Sebastian & Olivia… yet she never said anything to make it ok for Sebastian or Olivia to be together. And for some reason Sebastian never wanted to rock the boat with Julia or hurt her feelings.
For that.. I never warmed up to her & I resented her for everything that happened with Olivia.
Sebastian, I felt should have stood up to Julia and fought for Olivia. Shoot… Fight for what he wanted. Instead he took the cowards way out & just strung poor Olivia along while hiding it from Julia. Because he didn’t want to hurt her feelings. Well he did hurt someone’s feelings…Olivia’s & for that Sebastian will forever have regrets! Because he will never be able to make it right with her.
When Sebastian & Julia get together. I felt he was settling.
“I love you babygirl,” I whispered, as I moved closer to her lips. Her hands twirled in my hair and she moaned. Her lips felt silky and her skin smooth. Her tongue slipped into my mouth as I gently rolled her over, trying my best to show her that I loved her with my eyes, my touch, and my kisses. We explored each other’s bodies for the first time. We touched, sucked and licked every corner and crevice. Nothing went uncharted”
Yes…I felt he loved her with his whole heart.. I just didn’t feel it was that undying kind of love.
Plus too.. I still wasn’t feeling her. She got what she wanted…
But, I don’t think Sebastian did. I think he was going through the motions. Doing what he thought he should do.
Sebastian was living his “happy” life thinking everything is perfect when his whole world is turn upside down when he literally runs into Ysabelle.
Ysabelle…was like looking into his past.(you’ll know what I mean when you read the book!!) He couldn’t take his eyes off of her.
“Trust me baby, if we’d met before you’d remember. There wouldn’t be any doubt”
And this is where the roller coaster ride begins!
Sebastian tried to stay away. Tried to erase her from his mind.
But… He was a man consumed by Ysabelle.
“I thought about her, and I dreamt about her. I couldn’t get her out of my mind it devoured me. It was like a tsunami had come crashing down on me”
He was fighting to do the right thing. But in the end…
He was a man possessed!
“The god’s to honest truth is I didn’t feel guilty over being with Ysabelle, there was no remorse, and it made me feel more like an asshole. I felt saddened and upset to hurt Julia, that’s what I felt. It was the familiar feeling of how I felt when I was with Olivia. I wanted to regret being with Ysabelle it just wasn’t fucking there. And that’s why I couldn’t go home. The truth was eating me alive.”
And so begins there F’ed up relationship an escort and a married man.
The sex between them were out of this world!!! It was right on!!! I loved it!!! I could totally see it being played out in my mind!! HELLO!!!…lol
This book should come with a disclaimer:
(Reading this book at night will be dangerous to your spouse!!! It will unleash the inner animal in you!!) lol
Yes… I guess you can tell I loved the sex scenes!…lol
But this whole time with Sebastian he wanted the best of both worlds. He was a very selfish guy.
“The more time I spent with Ysabelle the more emotionally invested I became with her, she was all I thought about. When I was with her I didn’t want to leave, and when I wasn’t I wanted to be. It became an even more fucked situation if that was even possible. I lived for the moments that we were together and that was enough to get me through the day”
But all good things must come to an end right??!!
Things started to get real…
Feelings, emotions were starting to creep into the “relationship”. But Sebastian still could not make a decision about what he wanted! He still wanted both worlds… He just couldn’t break Julia’s heart. Leaving Ysabelle feeling second best.
“Stop. I demanded, just fucking stop. I can’t walk away from you, Any more then you can walk away from me. Were in this fucked up limbo, goddamn it were in it together, and I will not lose you. DO you hear me, I will not fucking let you go.”
Sebastian was burning the candle at both ends. When the shit hit the fan…everything went crumbling down. People got hurt. Relationships got ruined. It was just a big old mess. Which I felt could have been avoided… Well not avoided but…not as bad as it did if Sebastian only spoke up & made a decision.
If I had to say one negative thing about this book (& this is just my reading preference)
I wish in the beginning of the book that it didn’t go from past to present.
I wish that I could just read Sebastian story whole instead of jumping to Ysabelle future then back to Sebastian past.
But to each it’s own….
Even with that… I still loved this book & hope M. Robinson continues with these characters in a sequel book! (Fingers crossed…)
The ending leave you satisfied. But I’m greedy & I want more!!…lol
This book is truly an fantastic find!
Would I read more books by this author…hell yes!!!
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About this author
M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.
She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.
She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.
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